This is a bit of a different turn from last weeks post and that’s chill with me. I applied to university very spontaneously and after the deadline. No one thought I would get any offers, let alone the three I did get, and it was actually a really nice confidence boost in my abilities and the future I wanted right before exams. I’m really grateful I applied cause otherwise I wouldn’t be about to start my first year at one of the top five classics departments in the UK. I told myself that if I got no offers for my initial application – which I fully expected btw – then I would apply through clearing and see what I could get. And if nothing came of that then I would continue with my a-levels and apply again in September. If anything I would lose £23 or gain the opportunity to go to university. I had nothing to lose and everything to gain. I could see teachers doubting me, and my friends and you know what? I did it anyway and got everything I wanted. There’s something to be said for taking the risk. If you want something enough and try hard enough to get it then you will most likely get it – and maybe even get more than you expected to, at least that was the case for me.
You probably will get rejected. And I don’t just mean about University, but that is the example I will be using. I spent weeks phoning up so many universities that I lost count, to see who would accept me, the likelyhood of anyone accepting me and whether this was a pipe dream and I should wait a year and apply with a more realistic application. I was rejected by almost every university and so I decided to put it on hold for a while. Then I got my EPQ grade and thought I might as well try again. I got a positive response from one uni and so I put my all into applying. Because it took so long for that uni to make a decision on my application I applied to two more on a whim. Those two actually responded quicker and with offer’s I could actually fulfill. The initial university didn’t seem to understand my situation offerent me something I just could not fulfill. Ultimately I chose the university that responded to me the quickest. I’ll be going to the university that was most eager to take a chance on me and I wouldn’t have found it if I hadn’t been rejected so many times. Basically, you need to be rejected to find somewhere that actually wants you. If I had gone with the first university who was positive about me I would have ended up somewhere that made me unhappy and that would not have been fair to me, the university or the people around me. I am glad I kept searching and found probably the perfect place for me to be, with some of the top lecturers and honestly the most beautiful campus.
If you think you can do something then you 100% do it and not listen to anyone else. No one else knows truly how determined and stubborn and capable you are until you show them by putting your mind to something and prove them wrong. You just gotta prove them wrong mate. So many of my teachers were supportive but their support always came with a caveat and it just felt like the didn’t believe in me. All of them would ask if this is really what I wanted and they all put their opinions of my life of higher importance than the support they really should have been giving. I do appreciate their realistic outlooks but I really wish I could tell them all how well I have done despite the fact that they didn’t really think I could do it. More often than not you’re going to have to prove yourself to others, and whilst the only person you really should be proving yourself to is yourself, sometimes it’s nice to show people you’re more capable than they thought. But tht doesn’t define your worth. The only person who can define your worth is you.
I hope you got something out of this and that you realise you are so much more than your grades and a lot of universities and others do acknowledge that. The education system in the UK is a full mess and I am glad to be out of the government run part of it. I know that this is the correct next stage of my life and where I am meant to be for the next three years. I hope that you all find that place. Good luck with your next steps and remember that being rejected a lot isn’t the end of everything, it’s probably the beginning of something spectacular.